I know y'all have probably heard and read more than you want about this horrible tragedy, but I wanted to share a little bit about what's on my heart.
I know this was far away and I have no connection at all to what happened, but I do think being a teacher makes it hit a little closer to home- just as parents with kids this age probably does too. I know we use the words "cannot imagine" a lot when something happens, but I literally cannot imagine what these people are going through. I keep thinking this could of been my school just as easy as it was Sandy Hook. I could say many words to describe my feelings, but overall it is just plain scary. We have worked so hard to make our school a safe place. I know lots of my students don't have good home life's, etc and school is their favorite place to be. I promise you tomorrow when my precious little kids come in they are going to have a different view on school- not all of them, but some. It makes my heart break and when I get a million questions tomorrow, I don't know how I am going to explain something that I don't even understand. I love these kids like I would my own. I never knew the real job of a teacher until this year and I would do anything for my kids. I honesty believe being a teacher may be one of the most rewarding things, but it is also one of the hardest. I have come home crying, dealt with parents that I will never understand and literally told Mitch don't be surprised if one day I come home with kid ha! I know part of me is just being funny, but truly I would take in anyone of these kids. I know y'all are already praying for what happened, but also I would appreciate if you keep my class and I in your prayers. Tomorrow is going to be a hard day.
I have been complaining, in fact I clearly remember complaining to a fellow teacher Friday morning because we have SO many surprise intruder drills. I cannot believe I did that. I should be so thankful we have so many. I know schools that only have one a year and we have already had 3 since August. Yes they are a pain, but I look at them a lot differently now. I am so thankful for my school.
I know this was far away and I have no connection at all to what happened, but I do think being a teacher makes it hit a little closer to home- just as parents with kids this age probably does too. I know we use the words "cannot imagine" a lot when something happens, but I literally cannot imagine what these people are going through. I keep thinking this could of been my school just as easy as it was Sandy Hook. I could say many words to describe my feelings, but overall it is just plain scary. We have worked so hard to make our school a safe place. I know lots of my students don't have good home life's, etc and school is their favorite place to be. I promise you tomorrow when my precious little kids come in they are going to have a different view on school- not all of them, but some. It makes my heart break and when I get a million questions tomorrow, I don't know how I am going to explain something that I don't even understand. I love these kids like I would my own. I never knew the real job of a teacher until this year and I would do anything for my kids. I honesty believe being a teacher may be one of the most rewarding things, but it is also one of the hardest. I have come home crying, dealt with parents that I will never understand and literally told Mitch don't be surprised if one day I come home with kid ha! I know part of me is just being funny, but truly I would take in anyone of these kids. I know y'all are already praying for what happened, but also I would appreciate if you keep my class and I in your prayers. Tomorrow is going to be a hard day.
I have been complaining, in fact I clearly remember complaining to a fellow teacher Friday morning because we have SO many surprise intruder drills. I cannot believe I did that. I should be so thankful we have so many. I know schools that only have one a year and we have already had 3 since August. Yes they are a pain, but I look at them a lot differently now. I am so thankful for my school.
Every time I turn on the news, I hear something along the lines of "we need more laws" or "things need to change". In fact I was telling Mitch of things I think need to be changed, not government wise, but just in schools. And when I went to Sunday school this morning I got a new perspective. We have always has laws/rules, even in biblical times. But our God tells us we can't just live by laws, we have to have something with it. If we lived our lives just by rules and no relationship with Christ- the laws would be pointless. Our society doesn't need more laws in gun control, etc to try and fix our world. Our society needs to come to know Jesus and then it would be fixed. I don't disagree with people looking at this situation and trying to prevent it, but ultimately Jesus is the answer.
I know this is a lot, but it's my heart right now. This weekend has been hard, especially when I think about my class, but I just pray I can be a light to them each day.
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